AOTA... day 2

Day 2:

Overslept and missed the first workshop I wanted to attend. damn. 

Made it to 4 other *very* interesting presentations. Was glad I took some chances.

Visited the expo again. Talked with Kari and Jane. Bought a new brain book. (What color is YOUR brain?) Received *more* free stuff. Got my badge scanned in hopes of winning other *free* stuff. 

Got flowers delivered to my house. Thank you HealthSouth. 

Decided to hit the Astros/Brewer game tomorrow evening. 3 blocks from my hotel. 

Ordered pizza... and cheese sticks.... and cookies. Now am very full.

Have big plans tomorrow. 5 different classes. 

Did I mention that the Creating Keepsakes scrapbook convention is in the same convention center that AOTA is? Yeah. I am going to hit that up tomorrow.

Flying home on Sunday morning. 

houston.... day 1

so i made it late last night. my hotel is pretty cool... i have met some neat fellow OTs...i have learned some new interesting things... i have made some tough decisions... i am tired.

off to get ready for the expo grand opening. woot!

EASTER!!

No matter what state you live in.... church services starts the same at a Lutheran church..... "Jesus Christ is risen to-daaay a-a-a-a-le-luuuuu-ia" :) i love that song!

It's Easter. I'm in AZ. My family will be eating HAMLOAF and schnitzel beans. I will not. (well, i'm going to attempt to make the beans) I won't be hunting with my cousins. I won't be hunting with my parents (though i'm not sure what they will hunt for... mom sent me all the plastic eggs!). I won't get to see the Mullers, or PK, or dad and Lois, or Matt and Kelly, I sure do miss my church family.

i am going to try to make Easter dinner. Maybe our friends with the kiddos will stop by.... they can search for eggs :)

off to finish dying the easter eggs. 

HAPPY EASTER TO ALL!! :-D

and so it goes

Well vacation is over. Back to work. It was WONDERFUL  to have Breanne and Kiley and Kevin here. We had fun! It was awesome to have someone come visit.... and see my house, and doooo stuff with! :) We went to spring training (and got autographs.... lots of them at that), swimming... (it was cold) Alpha Xi Delta function (interesting), hung out and RELAXED (and watched disney along with some girlie movies... and cried) and went to the ZOO!! It was a wonderful time, and I was uber sad to see them go. 

what?!

Yeah, that's what I asked myself when I woke up at 145 IN THE MORNING and couldn't go back to sleep. (you can blame that on my left ear that is screaming at me) What does one do at 145 in the morning? well the answer is.... GO BACK TO SLEEP!!! clearly that was not an option for me as it is now 216 in the morning and I am still awake. I am going to clean out my car, and then fax in my paperwork to work, and maybe NAP? i do have to pick up Breanne and Kiley tomorrow at the airport at about 915, and then it's to the Brewer's spring training. It's going to be a busy day, I am sick, and I NEED TO SLEEP. but since that is not an option right now, I might as well be productive. *sheesh*

p.s.

i don't think i ever introduced kit kat to all you readers out there.... she is our second cat that we got about a week after getting snickers. i told you things have been hectic. now we have 2 kitties and a puppy, not to mention the birds i am attempting to lure to my back yard with yummy seed... :)

Snickers.... the first kitty i ever owned. doesn't she have pretty eyes? :)

Kit Kat  when we first brought her home, she is much bigger now.... and really skinny with looong legs. 

see previous blog for pictures of jackson.

no good, just no good

There are currently 875 emotions going on in my life.

a. there are massive budget cuts going on here in the state of AZ. I took a pay cut (at least I still have a job!!!) and i am also losing about 12 kiddos. if you ask me, they are double dipping into my (and every other therapist's) livlihood.

2. i am behind on paperwork. i'm not really sure how that happened... well i guess i do know, i have been tired lately and bed just sounds so much better than work and then it comes down to the wire, and the paper part is just not finished. *sigh* i need to suck it up and just FINISH!

d. it's official. breanne, kiley, and kevin are COMING TO VISIT!

!! i feel like it could be april first right NOW. i miss them TERRIBLY and i absolutely am counting the days until they are here!

4. jackson is adorable and is keeping me busy (see #2) we play, and attempt to go for walks (he's not very good with his leash yet), i'm trying to teach him that the best place to go potty is outside! he is pretty darn cute though:

5. i miss martin luther. (not the person, my church) i miss singing in cantare. and i certainly miss my friends and family. i think easter may be a little tough.

6. i'm going to houston, tx in april for my national AOTA convention. i think it will be a nice get a way... and a chance to learn new things and make myself a better OT. vegas is may for bowling nationals, and i am looking forward to spending (vacation) time with josh, and his family.

alright, once again procrastination and the desire to sleep have overtaken the necessity for paperwork. goodnight friends!

terrible horrible no good very bad day.

So I find out this morning that Margie died yesterday. I find out later this morning that Josh's grandpa died today.... 10:15.

Today sucks.

It sucks being in AZ and not being able to do ANYTHING! we can't be with family, *ARGH*

I don't know whether to be sad or pissed.

I wish I could say there was a silver lining.

Today sucks. 

oh man

so much has happened between my last post and now, but i really just need to get some feelings out. 

For some reason today I have been feeling like a failure. Like I am no good at my job, like I am lazy. I don't really know why all of this is happening. I feel like I am not a good therapist. I feel like I am letting my kiddos down. I don't even know how to really express this all. It is a very weird feeling, and I don't like it. Maybe I am just in need of an overhaul. Maybe I need to plan some extravagant therapy sessions for something different. I just don't know what my deal is, and it is making me very sad.

*sigh*