*sigh*

It's been over a week since Gramma died. I miss her, I feel it as if it just happened yesterday. I am back in AZ as of today and back to work tomorrow. I already feel like I shouldn't be here... more than usual. I feel like I don't have anyone. I miss my support group, I don't like being so far from my family! *sigh* This sucks!

the call

i got the call today. i need to come home and see gramma. i'm going on friday (ish). she is now at zilber. i know she's miserable and just wants to be done. but i hurt. i can't imagine my life without her. i can't imagine her not on the other end of the phone. i can't even begin to think about her not being here to tell about all the big... and little things that go on in my life every day. i am sad. i am hurting. i have nowhere to turn. i feel so helpless, so alone.

hanging by a thread

here in az. wishing i were in wi. gramma is not well. i want to be there for her. i want to be there for mom. for uncle thom. for my cousins. this sucks. i hate feeling helpless. not that i could change anything, but at least i could BE there for her. i could hang out. watch movies. eat ice cream. not be missing so much. *sigh*

i love my grandma so much.

MKE

Dear Friends~

Today is Monday May 10. I am leaving MKE back to PHX. I am not happy. I would like to stay loooooonger. How about forever? *sigh* Soon enough I guess. Thanks for being good to me MKE!

Later~

Jess

Day 2

So i went to this pre conference institute class today. i sure am glad i did because it was pretty much AWESOME! the presenter was really good, and i learned a LOT. my brain really needed some nourishment, and what a way to start it!

tomorrow begins the full conference... i think i am going to about 4 different classes/presentations tomorrow... and then..... MAGIC KINGDOM!!!! i have never been, and i am absolutely ecstatic to go!

i'm sure there will be updating tomorrow. i am planning on having a GREAT time!

thanks for reading. hope everyone's week is going well!

Orlando Day 1

I made it to FL!

MY hotel is... well... a hotel. not stellar by any means, but it will suffice to sleep and take care of daily business.

went to downtown disney this evening and had a wonderful dinner for 1 at planet hollywood. i didn't even mind at all. it was pleasant, me and my thoughts. just able to take it all in.

tomorrow is a little lounging by the pool... and then begins the brain food. i can't wait. if this year's conference is anything like last year, it's going to be a good week.

hasta la pasta! :)

2 good things

2 good things in 2 days. whose life am i living?? :)

I GOT A PROMOTION!!! ~ this means i am transferring to the hospital that is only 25 minutes from my house. and i get to be in a leadership position. hooray!

NORMAL RESULTS!! ~ my last pap had no high grade lesions!!! that means the surgery i had in december worked! hooray!

i am leaving for orlando on tuesday! it's time for AOTA national convention.... and DISNEY!!!! hooray!

i come back from FL, work for 3 days, leave for WI!

i work 15 days, then assume my new position at the Mesa hospital.

life is on the upswing!!!! hooray!