*sigh*

It's been over a week since Gramma died. I miss her, I feel it as if it just happened yesterday. I am back in AZ as of today and back to work tomorrow. I already feel like I shouldn't be here... more than usual. I feel like I don't have anyone. I miss my support group, I don't like being so far from my family! *sigh* This sucks!

the call

i got the call today. i need to come home and see gramma. i'm going on friday (ish). she is now at zilber. i know she's miserable and just wants to be done. but i hurt. i can't imagine my life without her. i can't imagine her not on the other end of the phone. i can't even begin to think about her not being here to tell about all the big... and little things that go on in my life every day. i am sad. i am hurting. i have nowhere to turn. i feel so helpless, so alone.

hanging by a thread

here in az. wishing i were in wi. gramma is not well. i want to be there for her. i want to be there for mom. for uncle thom. for my cousins. this sucks. i hate feeling helpless. not that i could change anything, but at least i could BE there for her. i could hang out. watch movies. eat ice cream. not be missing so much. *sigh*

i love my grandma so much.

MKE

Dear Friends~

Today is Monday May 10. I am leaving MKE back to PHX. I am not happy. I would like to stay loooooonger. How about forever? *sigh* Soon enough I guess. Thanks for being good to me MKE!

Later~

Jess

Day 2

So i went to this pre conference institute class today. i sure am glad i did because it was pretty much AWESOME! the presenter was really good, and i learned a LOT. my brain really needed some nourishment, and what a way to start it!

tomorrow begins the full conference... i think i am going to about 4 different classes/presentations tomorrow... and then..... MAGIC KINGDOM!!!! i have never been, and i am absolutely ecstatic to go!

i'm sure there will be updating tomorrow. i am planning on having a GREAT time!

thanks for reading. hope everyone's week is going well!

Orlando Day 1

I made it to FL!

MY hotel is... well... a hotel. not stellar by any means, but it will suffice to sleep and take care of daily business.

went to downtown disney this evening and had a wonderful dinner for 1 at planet hollywood. i didn't even mind at all. it was pleasant, me and my thoughts. just able to take it all in.

tomorrow is a little lounging by the pool... and then begins the brain food. i can't wait. if this year's conference is anything like last year, it's going to be a good week.

hasta la pasta! :)

2 good things

2 good things in 2 days. whose life am i living?? :)

I GOT A PROMOTION!!! ~ this means i am transferring to the hospital that is only 25 minutes from my house. and i get to be in a leadership position. hooray!

NORMAL RESULTS!! ~ my last pap had no high grade lesions!!! that means the surgery i had in december worked! hooray!

i am leaving for orlando on tuesday! it's time for AOTA national convention.... and DISNEY!!!! hooray!

i come back from FL, work for 3 days, leave for WI!

i work 15 days, then assume my new position at the Mesa hospital.

life is on the upswing!!!! hooray!

It's April.

I still fail at updating! What has happened lately? I hosted Easter at my house complete with schnitzel beans and home made garlic mashed potatoes. Mom and Dank came Tuesday after Easter. (the first time Dank had ever seen AZ... and my house!) It was an amazing visit, though much too short and I sure didn't want them to leave come Saturday. I am still working... and looking forward to my trip to Orlando in 2 weeks... and then to WI in 3 weeks. Being in AZ has lost its appeal, lost its excitement. The thing I am most looking forward to now is finding a job back in the milwaukee area, selling my house, and moving home! *sigh*

that's what's going on here in the hot hot arizona.

where has the time gone?

Hello blogger friends. I am not sure if anyone still reads this since I am no good at updating. But here's an update....

I am still living in AZ. I am still loving my house. Jackson is growing, and he is funny! He keeps me going on those "missing home" days. He keeps me smiling. Kit Kat and Snickers are still around and loving as ever.

I am still working at HealthSouth doing inpatient rehab. It's ok. I like my job, I am not so sure I like the place. But then again, that's how it goes at all jobs.

I'm stuck here in AZ until May of 2011 at the earliest (when my contract is up) and at that time I am hoping that I can sell my house and make the move back to the Midwest and my family!

I'll try to keep a little more updated.... no promises.