what?!

Yeah, that's what I asked myself when I woke up at 145 IN THE MORNING and couldn't go back to sleep. (you can blame that on my left ear that is screaming at me) What does one do at 145 in the morning? well the answer is.... GO BACK TO SLEEP!!! clearly that was not an option for me as it is now 216 in the morning and I am still awake. I am going to clean out my car, and then fax in my paperwork to work, and maybe NAP? i do have to pick up Breanne and Kiley tomorrow at the airport at about 915, and then it's to the Brewer's spring training. It's going to be a busy day, I am sick, and I NEED TO SLEEP. but since that is not an option right now, I might as well be productive. *sheesh*

p.s.

i don't think i ever introduced kit kat to all you readers out there.... she is our second cat that we got about a week after getting snickers. i told you things have been hectic. now we have 2 kitties and a puppy, not to mention the birds i am attempting to lure to my back yard with yummy seed... :)

Snickers.... the first kitty i ever owned. doesn't she have pretty eyes? :)

Kit Kat  when we first brought her home, she is much bigger now.... and really skinny with looong legs. 

see previous blog for pictures of jackson.

no good, just no good

There are currently 875 emotions going on in my life.

a. there are massive budget cuts going on here in the state of AZ. I took a pay cut (at least I still have a job!!!) and i am also losing about 12 kiddos. if you ask me, they are double dipping into my (and every other therapist's) livlihood.

2. i am behind on paperwork. i'm not really sure how that happened... well i guess i do know, i have been tired lately and bed just sounds so much better than work and then it comes down to the wire, and the paper part is just not finished. *sigh* i need to suck it up and just FINISH!

d. it's official. breanne, kiley, and kevin are COMING TO VISIT!

!! i feel like it could be april first right NOW. i miss them TERRIBLY and i absolutely am counting the days until they are here!

4. jackson is adorable and is keeping me busy (see #2) we play, and attempt to go for walks (he's not very good with his leash yet), i'm trying to teach him that the best place to go potty is outside! he is pretty darn cute though:

5. i miss martin luther. (not the person, my church) i miss singing in cantare. and i certainly miss my friends and family. i think easter may be a little tough.

6. i'm going to houston, tx in april for my national AOTA convention. i think it will be a nice get a way... and a chance to learn new things and make myself a better OT. vegas is may for bowling nationals, and i am looking forward to spending (vacation) time with josh, and his family.

alright, once again procrastination and the desire to sleep have overtaken the necessity for paperwork. goodnight friends!

terrible horrible no good very bad day.

So I find out this morning that Margie died yesterday. I find out later this morning that Josh's grandpa died today.... 10:15.

Today sucks.

It sucks being in AZ and not being able to do ANYTHING! we can't be with family, *ARGH*

I don't know whether to be sad or pissed.

I wish I could say there was a silver lining.

Today sucks. 

oh man

so much has happened between my last post and now, but i really just need to get some feelings out. 

For some reason today I have been feeling like a failure. Like I am no good at my job, like I am lazy. I don't really know why all of this is happening. I feel like I am not a good therapist. I feel like I am letting my kiddos down. I don't even know how to really express this all. It is a very weird feeling, and I don't like it. Maybe I am just in need of an overhaul. Maybe I need to plan some extravagant therapy sessions for something different. I just don't know what my deal is, and it is making me very sad.

*sigh*

weird feelings...

So this is the place to let it all out, right?? .... well here goes. 

josh works with this guy. this guy is going through a divorce. this guy needs a place to stay. that place happens to be with us. this guy came to look at the place tonight. i am not so sure about this guy. he is very nice. however..... he is going to rearrange that guest room. how long is he staying? no idea. what will he give us towards rent? no idea. he has 2 children... 2 & 4 don't get me wrong, i love kids, but.. .they're not mine. i can't discipline them. what if they screw up MY stuff? he has a cat. he has already told me his cat claws the sh*! out of his furniture. he smokes. this causes josh to smoke MORE. oh did i mention that he has a boat? that he wants to put in the garage... which means that josh will have to park on the street and PAY for a parking spot. i refuse to park on the street. this is MY garage. i am just nervous. 

what do i do? what do i say? i don't want him taking over my house, and my life, and my boyfriend. 

suggestions welcome. and thanks for getting this far.

Meet Snickers

So I was tired of not having a pet. Let me tell you. I have never really been a cat person. Well, a puppy in a place I am not supposed to have pets may be a little difficult to hide.  However, a cat on the other hand is a little bit easier. If she claws furniture, it's my furniture. So this family that I see is not only a foster home for children, but also for cats. They have lots of kittens and were always asking me if I wanted one. I broke down and said I would take one and try it out. So I picked this cute little gray one with a brown patch on her face. She is very fun. She is affectionate. She provides me with hours of laughter. But I think she is lonely. Today when I go back to see the family, I will see if they have any of her siblings left. Then she will have someone to play with during the days when we are at work. 

Hello Snickers, and welcome to our little family! :)